I’ve been so alone for the past week, packing up my Mom’s apartment, bit by bit. With each item, memories have been getting triggered, and I’ve had to quash them lest I be overcome. There’s been so much sorting to be done: to I keep this? Do I give it away? Is this in goodContinue reading “Saying Goodbye is The Hardest”
Having used a walker myself when I was on chemo, I can safely say that everyone you see in public is using their walker totally wrong. Look next time. You’ll see them hunched over, unbalanced, their weight in front of them. It’s terribly unsafe. I was taught that you need to stand up straight, arms at your sides. If you can’t have them at your sides, you walker is at the wrong height for you. They’re adjustable and your weight should be centered so you don’t fall. This is why you see so many hip and should surgeries.
(and other things they don’t teach you in school) Well, so my Mom died. I guess you’ve figured that out if you saw my last video, which I forgot to post here when I recorded it (been a bit preoccupied and I’ve gotten my posting order all mixed up. Sue me). I really thought weContinue reading “The Surreal Experience of Watching a Person Die”
So I guess I ask the world to forgive me if my thinking is off sometimes. I’m entrained to not trust what I see. I’m entrained to not believe what I hear. I’m always waiting for the other shoe to drop.
Fascinating argument (and much more articulate than I could ever make) about how God actually exists and relates to us.
When you send for one thing and have your expectations set but then it comes and you realize it was all a farce
This feels like one of the most powerful readings I’ve done yet
Check out my most recent video where I discuss the latest doings of my life and an interesting new project I’m about to embark upon—I’m really excited about this one and plan to vlog about it so I hope you’ll join me on the journey. I expect to get started on that around the endContinue reading “Vloggy Vlog: Sour Jars, Updates, & A New Project!”
Self to Self: How was your day?Self to Self: Oh, okay I guess.Self to Self: What’s wrong?Self to Self: Nothing, really. I actually felt a bit better today than I have for the past few days.Self to Self: Well, that’s good!Self to Self: Sure.Self to Self: Yeah. I managed to get a few things done.Continue reading “How Was Your Day?”
Our conversation hadn’t exactly ended on that awkward point, we had talked a bit more and ended on the more usual and banal, “talk to you soon”. I didn’t expect it to be the next day, or the next, as I knew I’d made things weird. This is typical for me, as I feel as though I see things as they are and I say so. Kind of in a Naked Emperor way, if you will.
I’ve wanted to start this series for some time, but there was always something that pulled me away.
There’s a certain manner, a certain niceness, and yet a specific insistence that they do not believe in any sort of spirit/beyond/God principle/scripture, regardless of whether or not they experienced any sort of religious upbringing or had done any kind of spiritual searching themselves at any point of time in their lives. There are aContinue reading “Suspiciously Arreligious People”
I’ve had this pattern ever since my cancer surgery back in the summer of 2017, where I get this terrible cramping that intensifies over the course of about 10 days, to the point where I’m really suffering and can’t stand the act of sitting up—until I can barely stay off the toilet for a dayContinue reading “My Strange Week of Pain”
This is a tremendous win for the Biden campaign, and a huge loss for Trump. It’s awesome to know that there are GOP members who will stand up for what’s right.
Climate change is a real thing. I won’t argue whether it’s man-made. We’ve done plenty to pollute Earth that it’s shameful to have that argument.
I don’t know about you, but I’m getting tired of using hand sanitizer everywhere I go; having to wear a mask every time I go out; having to disinfect my shoes and purchases every time I come in…being constantly vigilant in order to not become ill or to (gasp!) become a carrier. I suppose it’sContinue reading “Dear Diary, Feeling particularly empty today…maybe it’s just COVID blues?”
What does social anarchy have to do with gardening?
Not much in the way of blog posts or podcasts this week, simply due to the fact that I spent so much time on this one little thing that most likely will net me fuck-all.
I’ve been going through my YouTube videos and creating custom thumbnails for them using Canva. I can’t spend a lot of time doing this, which is why I’m just using an online tool, but I still find it a bit too much like my old design job, which caused me long-term and somehow traumatic injury. But I’m mostly having fun doing them.
Come hang out with me for a bit while I sip some morning tea and chat about the shelter-in-place, how I got my name, what the deal with my bathrobe is, and a few other things.
Many of my fellow Christians in America have warned me over the years of exactly that, often telling me: “I feel sorry for you, because when the Antichrist comes you’re not even going to recognize him!”
We are a society. We are one people. The homeless are a part of this society, and in fact, are a direct result of the way that our society currently functions. It’s our issue to solve, like it or not. Whether it’s through an income tax, a sales tax, a property tax (I like this one), or a combination of all of them, we need to house all of the people in our society. Housing is a basic human right, and leaving these people to suffer is a crime against humanity.
Just a short update on what’s been going on, along with my plans for this Channel. I really hope to start things back up again, this time with more regular content. Let know what you might be interested in seeing,
So then I’m in a place where not only can I not connect, but I am some kind of burden to society, a freak of nature, a huge misfit, unable to be my true self with anyone, anywhere.
One of my most recent songs, written in early summer of 2009 (songwriting isn’t a quick process for me) while I was recording “i am me/am i not?”. This track didn’t make it on the album and I’ve wanted to share it with you for some time. I plan to include it on my nextContinue reading “Picture Postcards | Acoustic Version: an Original Song by Auryaun”
This song is “Unnamed”. It’s very raw and emotional. I wrote it in 1993. I have yet to get a great studio version of it, but I’m planning on putting it on a future album. Possibly on “The Story of Swallow”–not sure. “Swallow” is taking an interesting direction at the moment. I apologize for theContinue reading “Unnamed”
I’ve held fast to this notion that we need to create more beauty in the world, and that beauty is the only thing that really matters.
I wasn’t a happy camper when I had to head over to said pharmacy and was just in a lot of pain, so I grabbed what I needed and headed back home to get a cozy as I could. Luckily, it’s raining today (a strange thing for the SF Bay Area in April, though not unheard of).
It’s nearing the end of summer 2011, and I still haven’t finished my EP due to my chronic pain condition.
I’m reblogging this to hopefully widen the audience as I was heartened and shocked by some of the views expressed by the physician interviewed. How we are handling this epidemic could be vastly more intelligent and effective. What we’re doing at the moment will create unintended economic consequences that will continue for months after we’veContinue reading “Public-health physician urges more targeted and less of a “shotgun” approach to stemming the pandemic”
When the reporter points out the blatant “error”, he spins it as though she’s attacking him.
Come, my friends! Come hear my tales of woe and insomnia! Is it just me?
But most people are much, much more social than I, and I can imagine they’re going a bit stir crazy right now.I actually love being at home and just hanging out, but that’s not what the majority of people enjoy.
Why are people just walking around and shit, like there’s nothing going on?! There’s this constant, and I mean constant flow of people during he day going past my window on the sidewalk. They’re just strolling around. Maybe that’s harmless? Am I being too cautious?
I got home and went back into MailChimp, only to find that I’d automatically sent out the “thanks for subscribing” email out while I was shopping. YOW.
It would go like this: you’re just about to finish up having completed evacuating your bowels, when another girl and her friend come in. (It’s never done alone, always with at least one other person, preferable only with one. Too many others and it seems like you’re just a random bully.)